In the contributors notes Louie writes that this story is
about his own displacement. I really
enjoy what he has to say about the development of this story, his memory of its
creation and evolution.
“With my other stories I can easily remember how each part evolved
in the writing but the particulars of this story’s origins escape memory. I cannot call back the clear-headed instant
Mrs. Chow first walked across my imagination, nor the image or detail from
which she bloomed. I don’t remember a
single crisis in the writing of the story, though I’m certain I suffered, as
always, through many. I suspect this haziness
of memory isn't a matter of forgetting at all, but has everything to do with
having known the story, in some deep way, even before I wrote a single word of
it. When the characters were new and
strangers to me, when the story’s events were still surprising, they were at the
same time familiar. Nothing stands out
about the story’s writing because this familiarity won’t allow it – in my
memory the story wasn't revealed in steps, by a process, but was a piece that
simply arrived, something had. The Chows’
story is about refugees, people off balance, whose dislocation is not just
spatial but cultural psychic, and emotional; it is, as I understand things, the
undefined, unarticulated unease I have known my whole life – my own
displacement.”
I don’t think many of us can make it through our lives without
feeling a little out of place. I’m one
of the fortunate ones. White male in
America. Yeah – not too tough sometimes.
I've written enough about my displacement – which was of my
own choosing – and in the end was wonderful.
It altered my life. I need to find ways to displace myself more
often. Displace my mind.
I have found creativity and discovery in some of my
displacements and I feel at some times that I am not displaced enough.
I push myself into a physical displacement on
the mornings that I run and in those mornings, I find something…something…something
– not quite sure what it is yet – but it’s good.
Perhaps what I feel physically is a little bit of that unarticulated unease Louie writes about.
I know that it’s possible to displace my mind – I just gotta figure that
out.
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