Police Dreams – Richard Bausch
Being a child of divorce, and now, being married (happily) and having a son, stories like Police Dreams resonate just a little more than it might have 15 years ago.
This was a strong offering by Bausch and I’m glad that Helprin included it.
It’s scary and it’s one of those stories that cause you to wonder if it prompted other readers to look a little harder at their relationship with their spouse.
I wonder sometimes how a partner in a marriage can miss certain signs from the other. I think that I am pretty attuned to M and I can read her quite well. We are in constant communication through the day, and she is very comfortable letting me know what’s on her mind.
But, I must admit, I have had the fear, and I wonder if it’s a fear of many men in stable relationships, that one day, something will just snap, and your significant other will just unload on you – ending it all.
I have a job where I can leave work at work and it isn’t necessary for me to bring it home in the evenings. We usually discuss the day on our way home and sometimes the events creep into discussions at dinner – rarely beyond that time.
Perhaps the husband in this story was too self-absorbed in his work to read the signs that his wife was giving.
The tone that the wife takes made me quite uncomfortable – and I couldn’t imagine being in a relationship that had deteriorated into the mess that unfolds through the story.
Still Life with Insects – Brian Kiteley
“…they are simply finger exercises, writing without knowing
that it is writing.” – Brian Kiteley from his contributors’ notes – The Best
American Short Stories 1988.
I believe that I may have mentioned that little nudges from
the universe appear when I need them the most.
Of course, they may be happening all the time without me picking up on
them…but then they wouldn’t be nudges…you know the whole tree in the forest
thing.
What I’m getting at, is that this story – rather, this
author came along at a time when I needed to read him – as have other stories
and authors during this project.
Kiteley is presently a Professor of English and Creative
Writing at the University of Denver. It
appears that he has 3 longer works of Fiction and two of Non-Fiction and is
included in Lit. mags and anthologies.
His non-fiction focuses on writing exercises and he has been
gracious enough to include some of those on his website.
I have written all of the above through clenched teeth
knowing that there is a decent chance that Kiteley has a google alert on his name
that will direct him here – and that’s fine I suppose.
I dig what this guy has to say on his website- Kiteley reproduces
the introduction to his book “The 3 A.M. Epiphany” – and in it, he mentions
Gass and his method for writing fiction also offering Madison Smartt Bell’s
feeling on the writing workshop.
I’ve been reading and listening to selections on Gass
recently and am slowly moving through The Art of Fiction by Gardner, (Kiteley
gives a nod to this book too) and now to
find this resource by Kiteley…it all seems to be lining up.
Lining up towards what?
Well, we’ll just have to see won’t we?
I plan on experimenting with some of Kiteley’s exercises. He said everything that I wanted to hear –and with
his appearance at this time in my life, I think I need to take the hint.
And now for some reflection.
In the contributors notes in the back of BASS 1988 Kiteley said
this about the development of his story:
“I was moving from Seattle to New York in 1982 with a rest
stop at my grandparents’ in Montreal. My
grandfather had a lifelong hobby of collecting beetles, and his locality
notebook lay on the workbench by the bed I tried to sleep on my first night
back on the East Coast. I stole four
entries from this locality notebook, writing them down in my own journal. They described where he caught batches of
beetles and when with the barest of relevant background information. Nine months later, in a girlfriend’s
depressing Murray Hill kitchen (bathtub at my elbow), I saw these entries and
decided to do an exercise with them.”
And this takes me back to what I consider my first exercise
in creative writing. My memory isn’t
allowing me to hold a firm date on the incident but for some reason I believe
that it occurred in the 2nd grade.
The 2nd grade seems almost impossible to me
because I can’t image that I would even be able to write after only learning to
read in the 1st grade.
Perhaps it was the 4th grade.
Our teacher gave us a magazine and told us to cut a picture
from that magazine, glue it to an index card and write a few short sentences,
developing those sentences into a story.
I picked out a picture of a small UFO toy and glued it to the bottom
left corner of the index card and wrote my few sentences.
Evidently, I did something right because I earned some praises
from my teacher and mother( mom’s approval is always important).
And I think of this exercise often.
So, I need to do more of this - more often.
Now.
Way to the Dump – E.S. Goldman
I’ve been there before.
In a place of restlessness caused by relocation - or a position without
stimulation – or perhaps it was a certain stillness which forced my hand to be
moved by forces of mischief. Of course,
these were in the days of my youth…long since passed. I have since learned other forms of relieving
the stifling grip of the foggy hand which chokes out sane decisions under stagnant
living. Gone are the reckless decisions
made on too much testosterone, on lack of experience or perhaps an emboldened
will reinforced by liquid courage.
I have learned to embrace the peace and stability of life
but wonder if the days ahead, (many years from now) will cause me to seek out
little disruptions in order to re-ignite…something.
Honestly, it scares me to think that I could move in that
direction.
As in this story, the main character, as he set out on his
normal day, had no intention of theft, had no idea of the twists that his life
would take as a result of his minor
crime. An unexpected result to what he
considered an almost innocent procurement of someone else’s property (he knew
it was wrong…but the stillness – the sameness – the routine forced his hands to
commit the action).
The mind and its fragility – to be massively altered from
one state to another by chemicals of its hosts own manufacture – or a simple
physical breakdown in the tube(s ) supplying the life giving blood to a portion
of the brain or body that sets off a chain reaction of destruction that alters
us completely to a person seemingly unrecognizable from who we were moments before.
It’s as if we are constantly walking on that tightrope –
never knowing when our mind will decide that the world needs to be a bit
different and we misstep – and slip…
Happy Birthday to Years of Bass!
Officially 4 years old.
Passed that milestone yesterday.
Here is a link to my
first post made on May 29th 2008.
Some numbers: 268 posts (269) counting this one with 26504
page views and 8 followers. I’m not
really sure what to make of these statistics.
Honestly, I can’t believe that I am still writing here. When I started this project I was sure that
it would only take a couple of years to complete. I had a rough count of the number of stories,
an estimate of how long it took me to read each volume and I think I calculated
just over 2 years.
I’m so far behind. I’ve
discovered that this is a difficult endeavor.
Reading these stories, learning about the author, attempting to find a
lesson from the story or somehow relate the story to my life (past present or
future).
There have been so
many changes in my life in the past four years (wonderful positive changes). The last two years have been the busiest and
the most emotional of my life and there were times where this space was ignored
for weeks at a time – when the last thing on my mind was reading…and there was
no way in hell that I could write.
It’s funny that as I write this, there is again a current in
the air that points towards some major changes in my life. Noooo….not another little one.
Not yet .
Just life changes.
Perhaps I am finding some comfort in returning to these stories and
seeking their direction.
Onward!
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