Joseph Epstein - January 9, 1937
“Let chaos come”
I love the above little sentence that appeared as if by magic, as I quickly reviewed this short before writing this piece. It is a phrase that I need to embrace.
Those who deal with me on a daily basis, and my family, would all agree, that I have the extreme need to control chaos.
I suppose I should say “need to control the events and happenings in my life”.
I’ve been working real hard lately to allow things to naturally fall into place and slowly let them ferment and develop a little before I respond to them.
You see, in a few short months, a little being is going to enter into this world (the Princess), and he or she will be throwing all sorts of chaos curveballs in my direction (The Count) for THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!
My life, M’s life, as we know it today, is going to be over in a few short months. We made this decision and are more than happy with it.
We had a wonderful 10 years together – just the two of us, but now...there will of course be the two of us plus another.
Just as The Count snaps his cane across his knee and dashes out the door laughing – I too am in the process of snapping my canes and will soon be laughing – manically!!! (joke).
I am comfortable with this new phase in life – this soon to be state of chaos.
My past is my past, and will soon be consumed by my present.
I will become someone new – shaped by the chaos.
“Let the chaos come”
I’ll be placing this short on my short list of favorites. I love it.