Sunday, July 1, 2012
The Water Faucet Vision – Gish Jen
My son is still too young to understand conversations that M and I have. I’m convinced that he understands the tone, and of course he does a wonderful job of reading facial expressions. M and I seldom have serious discussions in front of him, and of course we never argue in front of him. Our deep discussions are usually held after he is asleep.
One day, he will understand everything said and there will be times where the subjects we discuss could lead him to develop characteristics that define who he is.
Finances were always discussed openly around the dinner table and the difficulties that most middle-class families were discussed daily.
I didn’t like all the money talk and I hated the fact that so much of our lives depended so much upon either having it or not.
M and I both want to leave those discussions out of dinner table talk but I have a feeling that that it will creep in. W will want to have this or that…go places…and we’ll have to teach him the role that money plays in our life.
I wonder if W will have the time to wonder.
I remember that I spent what would seem to be hours just staring out my window.
I remember doing that more than I remember playing alone. I didn’t read as a child…what did I do with my time? I wasn’t allowed to watch much TV.
I seldom have time – or it feels that I never have time just to wonder.
I want W to have visions. I want him to see things spring from his mind. To create.